"Snow falling soundlessly in the middle of the night will always fill my heart with sweet clarity."
- Novala Takemoto
A few weeks ago, I made the snow fall in my kitchen. My friend Grace was there to capture it.
All photos taken by Grace E. Jones. You can find more of Grace's beautiful photography at her website here.
It's been almost 2 months since we've moved into our new home and our yard is finally covered in white. I've been waiting for the day when the snow starts to fall; when I'd wake up and look out the window to see that our little house, our house, was buried in a globe.
Winter is my favorite time of year. It gives me an extra excuse to stay inside and heat the house with the oven while I bake cookies late into the night. That way I get to watch the snowflakes dance in the frame of the windows; bright against the smokey sky.
This house is magic.
There is this surreal, hazy feeling I get when I look around our new kitchen. It's at least 3 times the size of the one I grew up in. There's a window in front of the sink where I can wash my dishes and watch the plants on the windowsill soak up the sun.
The smell of chocolate and coffee are so much stronger here.
I'm having a hard time comprehending this new reality. I feel a certain kind of thankfulness, but a lot of confusion.
How did we get here?
Do we deserve all of this?
There will always be apart of me that avoids rest for that reason. I feel the constant urge to earn it. There's no time to stop and marvel; I keep moving. I've reached an important point in my life, where I can't stop watching the snow fall from the kitchen window in disbelief so I keep washing those dishes to make more cookies.
This is ours.
I met Megan when we worked on a wedding photoshoot together at the beginning of 2017. We talked briefly amidst the chaos of confetti, cake, and ribbon, but really got to know each other after she asked me to bake her wedding cake.
Her wedding theme was inspired by cloud illustrations that she had illustrated, so we worked together on creating a cake that fit her design.
I baked a chocolate cake and covered it in buttercream frosting that was made to look like her artwork. To mimic the sky, it was topped with cotton candy clouds.
Photo's taken by Matthew Garsky & Alec Rossborough.
Trust in the process and good will always come.
A few months ago I got a text from our wedding photographer asking Dan and I if we would be interested in working on a styled shoot for a Catalyst Wedding Co. competition.
It was my very first time working on a shoot unrelated to fashion. We offered our hands where needed and made incredible new friends.
The competition required teams to use everything they received in the box sent to them for an untraditional wedding shoot. Our group received different props than they anticipated; iridescent wrapping paper, geometric art, etc; reminiscent of the 90's. But even after having to completely redesign the shoot, everything fell into place. It always does right? No matter the stress we may be under, if we trust in the process, it all works out.
That's the beauty in surprise.
A few of my favorite photos are below, including the grand finale cake smash. It was the first wedding cake I had ever made, regardless of whether or not it was for a photoshoot. I had an overwhelming feeling of joy.
When creative, powerful people come together, beautiful things happen.
You can read the contest submission and see the entire photo series here.
Photography courtesy of Rachel Joy Barehl. See more of her work here.